narrator Perhaps the title might be a little presumptuous, since I call "narrratrice", but if I continued to design for all these years was because I always tied my characters in stories and I've designed thinking about their characters, their way of seeing and perceiving the world. Lately
are quite thoughtful about my being the narrator.
I like to tell, but I started to feel guilty, because they are no longer able to do as I wish, because I can not find enough time to devote.
When I do other things I tend not to think about it. Design, do graphics, web design, things that I like to do anyway ... so the idea of \u200b\u200bme at the moment narrator turns away without my noticing.
When, however, I start to read things that I really like (whether comic books) returns me to mind my own narrator, the same that I can not live without telling and I'm thinking "but where I ended up 'cause I dropped everything? why not spend much time with my stories and my characters? What am I doing? Were not my world?"
It seems to me to have reached a crossroads and I do not know what to do.
I know I have to work, I have to point to another in order to live and the time to write my stories is always less. Yet I still think of them, I keep thinking of my characters as if they really existed. I know their stories and I know that somewhere in their "lives" are continuing.
In my head they're still around, still no progress without pain in their lives, in their hypothetical lives .. I'm just not able their lives to put these on paper ....
"If only I could do it all themselves better physically," I often say to myself, but it's probably just an excuse ... an excuse I keep telling myself to feel less guilty for themselves that I'm doing everything possible, but now there are external factors that prevent me to do everything .... but it is a lie? "Maybe I could do it too .. maybe I could do that ... stirring in my heart that little voice that sometimes comes out more clearly and start to feel bad.
"I do not want to leave everything" and "I can not do everything" are the thoughts that constantly alternate in my head.
read Murakami's book "The'arte to run "the doubts have become increasingly insistent. Murakami tells of how he decided to become a writer at 33 years and has left the previous work (managing a bar) to dedicate himself fully to his vocation. He risked, but managed to do what he wanted .... but if you do not risk as you can tell? In fact, always depends on the priorities that everyone puts in their lives. What I really want to do? Until a few years ago I would have responded immediately: "I want write and tell my stories. "
Now? Now I do not know.
I want to write and tell my stories, but in Italy you can not live with that. When not abroad, the situation is particularly heartening.
So I came to the conclusion that I want to look for a job within the illustration, graphic and web design and I do not want to leave at the same time my passion for storytelling, directing, comics. In short, look for the right moment, the moment when I can relax for potermici more time. In the meantime I will continue to devote myself when I can.
All this to say that I want to continue the story of Keiko to the next issue of Taboo. The story of this girl who has closed his heart, who speaks no more. The story of this girl whose life will change thanks to a little girl. I would like very much. It 's a story I have in mind for several years now, from 5-6 years. I hope
that people who enjoyed "Carmina Burana" also appreciate this story, that will not disappoint. I do not know if I can maintain a good technical level (it depends very much on my arms .. if you misbehave or not), but anyway I will try to develop the best story in a realistic way to make the feelings of my characters. I hope to make it real. As soon as I finish the ILAS I will concentrate on the storyboard and I will keep you informed of developments.
Lungooo After this post I'll leave you wishing you a good evening and hoping not to have depressed! : D
ah .. and I enclose a disegnuccio Keiko and Saki colored with Copic without paying too much attention (and you can see XD) **
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